So that's the adorable little face I have to leave every morning now that I am back to work. I started back on Monday and it's been sort of surreal so far. It feels strange to be back and strange to be away from Katie and strange to leave her with someone else all day long. But that someone is my mom so it's totally ok in that regard.
I got everything ready Sunday night to make Monday morning go smoothly. It did go smoothly until I had to leave and then I became a basketcase. I was just so sad to leave her. But I knew it was going to get worse. On Monday, I couldn't even conceive what it wold be like to leave my little girl for almost 10 hours. But today (Tuesday), I knew what it felt like to be away from her and it made it so much harder to leave. I cried most of the way to work and then put my makeup on as well as a smile and headed into work.
The evenings have been nice at home, but Katie is going to bed around 8:30 at night and naps for a little while in the evening before that. So, I am only getting about 2 hours of wake time with her, if that. But I know that will change as she gets older. I absolutely hate to miss anything in her life, but I am trying to be a big girl and make the most of every moment that she is awake!
In my bible study, we're talking about contentment and being content in any circumstance. WOW, what a lesson for me right now. The study tells the two line story of two women in a rural prison. "Two women looking out of their prison bars. One saw mud and one saw stars."
So I am trying to see the stars! I am so blessed that my child is healthy and is spending every day with a grandparent who loves her so much and has the patience of Job. I am blessed to have a job that is secure in these insecure financial times. I am blessed to have a husband who has been such an encourager as we transition back to me working and who has totally pitched in with whatever I ask him to do.
I leave the house every morning to a beautiful smiling baby girl. While the leaving aspect seems so
muddy, the smile that stays in my heart for the rest of the day is my
star!
I hope you can be encouraged to be content in your difficult situations and look to the stars instead of the mud. After all, your feet can get stuck in that mud if you're not careful!
(Did I mention that my child sleeps like a champ at night? Daytime is another story, but at night she's sleeping almost 11 hours!)
4 comments:
You have such a good attitude. Keep thinking that way and focusing on the positives, like how well she sleeps at night (you go, Katie!). Can you imagine going back to work on little to no sleep? You're blessed in that regard! I love all the cute pics!
I can't believe how big she is getting! She is so cute!
I remember just a few short weeks ago how you cried because she would never sleep. Now you never see her awake. Times change. I guess the book worked. Glad everything is going well. Love you guys, Gabriel
Ohhh... Linda Dillow, Calm My Anxious Heart is right up there with my Bible as far as my favorite, always go back to, guide! Glad you're doing well... David still talks about wanting to have a baby girl at our house since you came to visit! He loved Katie!
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